Reignition, Resolutions and other Random Remarks

hello folks,
happy new year!
i like the new year greeting because it fills the void of that empty and sometimes akward-walking-down-the-hall-greeting.
like today at my school i said happy new year to every teacher i passed cuz thats just the thing to do as a student teacher (read:suck up)and to some i even said it twice...mostly cuz i'm socially inept in high pressure situations but also becaue i really like saying "happy new year"

as steve said to me the other night, "this bloggin thing has been in first gear for a while". tis true...tis sadly true. he also commented that delinquents (read:naomi) post comments on un-updated blogs asking for new posts yet post not new blogs of their own. this is unacceptable in the world of blogs according to sub-section 4 of by-law 8. isn't it just like me to quote some random law...i think it is. call me a pharisee. i would just like to calrify, for the record, that i did not blog because of said comments on my blog but rather because i have been with grade 4's all day and feel...well a bit lower in intelligence, a bit perkier than usual and like my language abilities need some warming up before i tackle the next 500 pages of that Bronte novel that haunts my backpack.

teaching. nice transition there...wouldn't you say? it was the first day back today. and since i changed to teaching monday's instead of wed. i got to see my happy little grade 4's on their first day back from holidays. these kinda days are crucial in the life of a teacher because the first day back sets the tone for the next little while. well my supervising teacher wasn't there...that's right she missed the first day. not a great start. but she has back problems...so i guess it's excusable. did that sound sincere...because it is. actually, i was glad she wasn't there. when i realized she wasn't coming in I panicked for a small moment and then i was like...:what are u panicking about, u idiot?"...my inner dialogue is very mean. some say so its my outer dialogue. I pulled up my bootstraps..(read: pantyhose) and decided to do this and do it right. i set up the class and the activities for the entire day with the help of the teacher next door. I was amazed at how well everything went. I even taught a grade 3 gym, planned for tomorrow and basically ran the whole day. the supply teacher basically sat back and watched. it's a good feeling to know that after 3 years in this very demanding program i can do it...i can actually just pick up and teach. my class and another one...where i had to call the kids you in the orange shirt. i guess its the feeling that i know i'm not yet a real teacher but i'm convincing enough that the kids play along and really quietly too. it's a good feeling. my greatest fear as a teacher is class management...probably because i have such a hot temper that i'm afraid i'll just want to scream at the top of my lungs when things get outta hand. but lo and behold no screaming. i am actually a very nice teacher..sans le scream...a little bit of mean looks but no scream. the kids were really happy to see me ( only cuz i bake them stuff for special days...thats what my sister says) but i think its cuz they actually think i'm a nice teacher. i heard all about the christmas presents and family gatherings and that was fun. they also asked me to come in 2 days a week..(ha!) i guess an encore is good sign no?
my principal and ap are also super duper nice to me. which is a bit scary cuz either they love u and want to give you a job or they're afraid you're a little bit nuts and don't want you around the children. i guess i could lean either way. (i kid i kid)
i've come to the conclusion that i really like the junior years and if teaching is where i end up it will hopefully be in those years. i guess we won't know for a while though...since my current career plans consist of " i dunno" "ask the grad school applications committee" or "homeless". at least i'll be licensed by the college of teachers with the last 200 dollars to my name.

k so i dunno about u but i make new year's resolutions. and by the grace of God who knows what a faulty specimen of humanity I am I am sometimes able to keep them. i looked at last years before i made new one's this year and i saw that i'd come a long way. maybe u don't see it but thats probably because most of my battles are fought at the level of mind and heart. at any rate, it was good to see that " in my weakness, He is strong" and a little progress never hurts. there were several things however that stood out like a sore thumb mostly because they didn't get done or were started with the best of intentions and then fell flat on their face me along with them. what's that saying, "the road to hell is paved with good intentions" something like that. but i digress, when i looked at those things that were forsaken...i saw the root of a lot of things...things that could've been avoided. what's the other saying, "hindsight is 20/20". but life isn't about sayings its about living...isn't it? this is starting to sound depressing...i spend too much time in the recesses of my mind...time to surface.

so one of the new years resolutions that got left on the shelf, after a couple too many dinners out and snacks help me study times, was losing some weight. not cuz i'm such a a fatty i digust myself but because i need to be a healthy weight for my height and need some activity before my heart and lungs start to grow spider webs. reading is not considered excercise i hear. and then today at school, i t was confirmed that i really do need to do this because one of my students called me fat. yeah that's right...FAT..not PHAT...as in miss ur a cool teacher. the culprit was J. my adorable ESL kid who i blatantly favour. he comes up to me at the end of the day and mumbles in his thick east indian accent " you're a little bit..ppphhttt.." and i'm like i don't think he said fat, he's my favorite. so i ask him to repeat it and he runs away and then comes back and says, " you're a little bit fat". after i laughed a little at the ridiculouness of the moment. I told him that's rude to say to a teacher and he said "sorry" and skipped away. i felt in the neighborhood of a million lbs.
how's that for a welcome back present...needless to say daniela will be hitting the gym soon...and hitting it hard. thanks J.

ok so the reignition in the title refers to the rest of u reigniting ur blogs so that i have something to read while i procrastinate on reading school work. i was thinking that when naomi moves away she should keep a blog so we can still know what the heck is going on in her life. i suggest this mostly because i am horrible at keeping in touch and losing friends is not currently on my list of favorite pasttimes.

this is a long post. sorry. its been a while. school is back so distractions are key.
i leave u with the song that has been on the repeat mode on my ipod...mostly cuz i love coldplay and cuz it's been a confusing kinda week....month...time...whatevs...

THE HARDEST PART
And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
Was the hardest part
And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining in the clouds
oh And I
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart
And I tried to sing
But I couldn't think of anything
And that was the hardest part

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're a silver lining the clouds
Oh, and I
Oh, and I
I wonder what its all about [x2]

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Oh and thats the hardest part
Thats the hardest part
Yeah, thats the hardest part
Thats the hardest part

<3 Daniela