catching up

hello bloggin' friends,
so it's been a while...i finally caved and did the google blogger thing
lots of stuff has happened like naomi's shower which was a hit and secret to boot...her party for which we were fashionably late...school...reading for the love it...etc etc.

neways, the point is life is fun! fun fun fun!

onto another topic,
i just wanna give a shout-out to all my girlfriends that have a boyfriend..aka who are not single....i just wanna let u know that i love ur boyfriends because they love u and i especially love how you all make fun of each other for being obsessed with you respective boyfriends and then obsess over yours...i think that is splendid and it brings great joy to my life and makes me laugh at ur respective antics...silly girls!

so i told jenn that i was gonna post all this stuff about having urges to have my own classroom even though i already spent a million dollars to apply to grad school. and i am. sometimes i so throughly enjoy being a teacher. being in the classroom. seeing my kids learn and make progress. i always go home so fulfilled and tired and just thinking about all these issues and possibilities. it really is such a challenging profession that has so many new opportunities every single day. if you take hold of them. i see alot of teachers....young and old alike that don't that don't engage and wrestle with the conflicting role of their person as a teacher and the impact on the lives and futures of their students. i really think that these teachers have never understood the political and philosophical aspect of teaching. the fact that is about more than content and even skills but that is about your personal vision of society and encouraging students in the direction of your vision of society. and that there are such a complex webs of factors that children enter the classroom with and that often as teachers you have to hrdle all of these and be a stronger influence in a student's life.

in spite of this sometimes, i still feel like there is not enough being done. by myself, by the admin by other teachers. like not enough resistance not enough counter culture not enough teaching. when i feel like that its usually because i get wrapped up in the content. i love content. i'm a sucker for facts and information and sometimes i get wrapped up in that when i teach and forget to act that hard questions of what this means to my students and how it will shape them in people that will question the world around them and choose to live authentically and originally.

at the same time (because everyone knows I am a mess of contradictions) i think this is the reason why I want to go to grad school and ask more questions and learn more things about this profession. i think i could learn this just as well if i was practicing the profession but i feel like i want a theoretical academic environment to do this in. I understand that this gives me a certain lack of practical context to draw from (this is why i won't get into oise) but i think i have lots of different ideas to contribute.

ok so that's it for that ramble. onto another one. (naomi this is extra long for u...love d)

so today i was thinking that sometimes i'm too political or too conceptual or something. what i mean is sometimes i do things based on ideas. like forexample i do things because i choose a certain stance and then i act based on that. i guess everyone kind of does that but i just kinda saw it as obvious today. i think sometimes thats why i'm such a robot and i just talk about really grand things but it doesn't really jive with what i do. i guess everyone struggles with that but its still not cool. this probably makes no sense because its extremely vague. so i'll quit.

ok so thats it. we should all blog again cuz its fun and i get to practice writing things down.

goodnight!
d