like i didn't know. (or you for that matter :) )

You Have A Type A Personality

You are hyper, energetic, and always on the mood You tend to succeed at everything you attempt And if you don't succeed at first, you quickly climb your way to the top! You could be called a workaholic, but you also make time for fun As long as it's high energy and competitive, you're interested You have the perfect personality for business and atheltic success

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Hope.

"We must accept finite disappointment,
but we must never lose infinite hope."
- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Relient K-When I Go Down

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disreguard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where Peace can search me out and find
That I'm *so* ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find *an* end *to* this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not that way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet You love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly
You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when You do you make it light
As I exhale I hear Your voice
And I answer You, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathatic, but it's a fallen man's praise
Because I love You
Oh God, I love You

And life is now worth living
If only because of You
And when they say I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to You
I won't look very far
Cause You'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

Pumpkin Carving Contest...We Need YOUR Vote!

hello blogging world,

On Sat. night Jenn hosted her 2nd annual pumpkin craving contest! It was awesome be cause we got to eat authenic chinese food (mmmmmm) and carve pumpkins and make pumpkin pie!! There is a lot at stake in the competition so we need you votes....
if you want to vote for one of the pumpkins and check them out...go to...www.pumpkins2006.blogspot.com...and vote!
enjoy the pumpkins!
BOO!
daniela

something cool

look what i just stumbled upon....some days i love the internet....

an artist that works only with one piece of 81/2 by 11 paper. now thats putting office supplies to good use.

http://www.oncotton.co.uk/peter/index/index2.html

how much for the blog, lady?

My blog is worth $564.54.
How much is your blog worth?

thats pretty rubbish...

looking back.

blast from the past
"in all honesty, i do miss being in Europe. Mostly my lifestyle there...that being the hobo one....Seriously though it is kind of nice to just be disconnected from everything for a while and just worry about where your going to have lunch or what bench ur going to sit in the sun in. This is not to say I didn't have any responsibilities there...i mean i had to catch trains on time and in my last week of teaching i was responsible for like 50 kids but life just seemed much simpler. I also liked being alone...especially on trains..it gave me lots of time to think and figure stuff out and just pray....this was a welcome relief since at home i always feel like I'm running around with a million things to do and can't ever sit and just be. As soon as i got home this all returned as i had to jump feet first into everything like my bills and school and courses and applications and etc etc etc. but I am learning to take it all a step at a time and with calm and composure...check back come midterms...haha"

checking back...a thousand times i fail...still UR mercy remains.

is it too early to begin a Christmas wishlist?

i was in the library today getting books for my adorable grade 4s and i came across a book that I absolutely want for Christmas...i love when serendipitous things like this happen...with books....i love books!

as an added bonus, the book looks like a tome of something uber important because it is bound in purple velvet....mmmmm...and has gold embossed writing...ahhhhh...i only own one beautifully bound book...my collecter's edition of The Secret Garden...i love that book....am i nerdy?...don't answer that.

when life gets tough...work piles up....the weather gets colder and friends become stranger(s)

"Somehow we'll make it
'Cause that's what we do"

Red Hot Chili Peppers "make you feel better"

Jane Austen on marriage...

Mansfield Park's Mary Crawford on marriage:

"... it is, of all transactions, the one in which people expect most from others, and are least honest themselves."

interesting.

i am writing my paper....i swear.....

a little procrastination...goes a long way to not getting my paper finished...

i was going to write a rhyme about procrastination but then realized that its also procrastinating...so i will just post this cool map...think i've got the travel bug again? not enough red...what do YOU think? i am getting back to work right now....



create your own visited countries map

posting html code makes me feel smart *ding* (the sound when smart people feel smart)


oh and one more thing i read in the paper today that people with a BMI of 20 and under (normal) in a study could remember 9 out of 16 words on a word recall list whereas people with a BMI of 30 and over (more in my range....that would be the fatty range....) could remember less than half....yes another reason for me not be such a fatty....even my brain may be affected by it...scary

the cold is coming friends...bundle up!

daniela

the rescue

"When I said, "My foot is slipping,"
your love, O LORD, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought joy to my soul."
Psalm 94 (The Message)

sometimes i talk it out...and sometimes i write it

one of the things that i miss about xanga was that thing that let you tell people what you were reading or listening to...i'm not reading anything interesting...mansfield park for 19th century brit.women's lit...boring...but i'm listening to john mayer...courtesy of steve (thx!)...i love john mayer and listen to his stuff all the time but there are certain days where i just listen to his stuff and it just so fits the mood i'm on...today is one of those days...rain...tea and john mayer makes for a blogging mood.

i had a little crisis of academic confidence last night. it played out as follows...i came home and grabbed my dad by both shoulders and said i don't think my professors think i am grad school material. my dad proceeded to laugh at my behaviour. I sent emails out on monday to ask profs for reference letters and they hadn't responded. i thought it was because they didn't think i was grad shcool material and didn't want to refer me but didn't know how to break it to me. so i doubted...as i regularly do. i must have checked my email amillion times...no luck. i was sure that i would have to ask some professor that i didn't even know for a mediocre reference. then i realized i had put everything out of perspective...as i tend to do. i'm a little dramatic (understaement of the year) when it comes to the future and school. i knocked some sense into myself and prepared to bang down some doors to ask for reference letters. then i get home today and both profs. responded. why do i do this to myself?...honestly! His ways are higher...all things work together for good....man do i have a hard head!

i basically shrieked with joy when i got those emails. and it was just the icing on a great day. i taught my first lesson today to my grade 4s. then i was asked to teach it to the other grade 4 class too. it went great both times....save some class management stuff which is the bane of all student teachers. the teachers who watched me both said i was great and that they have already recommended me to their principal for hiring ...can u imagine? i was more than thrilled because i have really loved teaching this year more than all the other previous years. i am starting to learn more about my class and they still do funny things that make me laugh but i have to be a bit more serious now because i am expected to actually instruct these children and not just laugh at their antics. what a ridiculous proposal!

since i now have willing referees i have to write a statement of interest. i'm not a hundred percent on what i want to study in graduate school. i do know that i want to learn about schools, teachers and the settlement process. I met the settlement worker at my school today and she talked to me for about 40 minutes about waht she did. she also showed a video to the staff about parent teacher interviews. it was for newcomer parents to Canada. it seemed really helpful. i don't remember a lot about what it was like for my parents when we got here but i feel like there are so many supports and systems for parents now. i feel like my family settled well (some of u may differ with me on that :)) but i'm not really sure how. i'm sure faith had a lot to do with it but i'm not sure about how and all the rest. as i was talking to this lady i was really excited about what she did and how she facilitated questions from newcomer families in a way that let them learn how Canada works.

I guess some of this should be in my statement of interest.

white night was last sat. and i must say it was a fabulous time w/ some fabulous friends who always make me laugh.

while looking at a model of the city of toronto...
d-there is a technical architechtural term for this....what is it....
ken-its called a model
d-no there is a tech. term...i know it in spanish but not english
jenn-in chinese its "model" (said with a fob accent)
hahahahhahahhhahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

d-let's go to philosopher's walk.there is an artist who is filling it with fog.
jenn-what? he's gonna fill it with immigrants?
d-not fobs jenn, fog...
hahahahahahhahahhahahhahahahahhahahahahhaahhahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahah


while playing with giant dominoes and putting one sideways instead of lengthwise...
random kid: that's not how u put them...what are u 12 years old
d-*hangs her head in shame*
hahahhahahhahhaahahahhhhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah


life is good. things are well and then in a moment where i am not running around doing something or other as i'm waiting for my tea to boil the pang comes. a sharp bitter pang of something lost, of a lonely place, of irreversible actions, of words not taken back, of words not spoken, spoken too late. the drops know their path well for they've traveled it before. they may have to travel it again and again and again and....

dreaming with a broken heart,

daniela